Well, that doesn't make ANY sense

Hi Gang - it's been a long time since I've blogged here or on my own blog, so I wanted to drop a line. I had an interesting encounter this weekend...

I was at the bowling alley (my family bowls every Sunday morning together... it's fun!) and the girl who works there, Betty, was welcoming me back. In late February I had a surgery and my doctor has just released me to go back to life as usual, which means bowling and hitting the gym one of these days, too. Well, I was talking to Betty about her resolve to quit smoking and I was so proud of her! She and I were speaking about the weight I need to lose for many reasons... health, happiness, maybe having a child someday and when I told Betty, "Well, you know I have A LOT of weight to lose, like 1/2 of me!", she responded with "But you're so adorable."

Hmmm... I'm confused. Flattered... but confused. I am so grossly overweight, I'm worth 2 people and I'm supposed to feel comforted that Betty at the Bowling Alley thinks I'm cute. Bless her for it and I don't want to sound ungrateful, but she was either being nice cause she didn't want to agree too enthusiastically, or she really thinks that being "adorable" negates that I don't take care of my insides the way I take care of the outside.

So, I don't know why this has been weighing on my mind, but this has happened before and I don't get it. I know plenty of overweight people that dress like slobs and look 40 pounds heavier, and those who fit in what they can get in... either way, I've got work to do. Hmmmm.....


- Heather G, "HAG"

Taking care of myself like I would take care of a child

"So I thought, 'What if I had a child. Would I treat him/her this badly? Not feeding him nourishing food? Not getting him out and moving around or making things so that he could be happy?" Well, of course I would take care of a child. So why am I not taking care of my own body and mind?"

A friend of mine wrote the above in her own blog the other day and it made me think. I know that if I had kids I would not let them get away with not exercising for three months. I tell myself that I have a lot of things I have to take care of at home so I can put off going to the gym another week, but when I was a kid I somehow managed to do my homework and chores, play with friends, and go to my swimming and gymnastics practices and meets. There's no reason I can't make it to the gym three or four times a week - I just need to stop being so lazy and take care of myself.

~Lindsay